Narrator: Mark
deputy general manager and shareholder of a well-known cosmetics brand company
MBA, outstanding writing, famous talent in the industry
35 years old, 183cm tall, with a little vicissitudes on his face, but with an artist’s temperament
The first time we met was in the coffee shop outside. He could not insist on going to the slightly sour club, and told me to bring him some photos of girls I thought were good, which fully showed the shrewdness of a marketing expert.
Why do I come to the acid salon? To tell the truth, it is because my ideal of pursuing a happy life has not been shattered. At this time, people always insist on something, don’t want to compromise, don’t want to turn back even if they suffer losses many times, and sometimes they think it’s funny when they calm down. However, people are such strange animals, and there are always many fools dancing in chains.
To put it bluntly, I want a pure tall girl with a white heart and body, so that I can completely trust my love to her. The requirement of being tall is, of course, because I am tall, so that there is external harmony. As for purity, yes, I hope she’d better be a virgin.
In fact, there has never been a concept of virginity before. I think, objectively speaking, this is the sequela and toxin left by life after hurting me. When I graduated from college, I was assigned to work in the relevant departments of the provincial government. I was in my prime and had a bright future. Many people proposed marriage, including my immediate supervisor, the daughter of a certain department director, but I declined. Until one day, Ganoderma lucidum appeared in my life like a painting. When I went to play basketball that day, a girl was walking outside with a basketball. She was a tall woman standing out of the crowd, wearing a red jersey. She wiped her face with a towel while walking. Her face was red, sweaty, and sweet. It was like a red apple dripping with dew. My heart suddenly bumped around like a deer. When she walked out of the court, I shouted “let’s play together”. Now when I think back to this scene, I still have a tremor in my heart. It seems to be a certain plot in the film. That young boy who pursues the wind suddenly has a new love. Since then, youth has encountered sweetness or tragedy. Who can control it?
The 1.76-meter-long Ganoderma lucidum, who graduated from the Institute of physical education and worked as a basketball teacher in the provincial physical education school, taught the daughter of Ganoderma lucidum, and studied basketball and violin since childhood. This is what I learned later. I deeply fell in love with her. Every day, I would write a love letter to her, play basketball and fish together on weekends, or go back to both parents’ homes for dinner. She has a bad temper, and it is easy to get angry or play temper because of a small matter. I was also an only child and had a bad temper, but in the face of her, I was persuading myself to change, be gentle and be good at tolerating. I introduced her to all my classmates and friends. We are a pair of standard golden girls. Everywhere we go, we attract a lot of attention. Everyone’s blessing and praise also greatly satisfy a man’s vanity. One year later, we are already preparing for the wedding. I am excited to look forward to the arrival of the wedding date. I have always restrained myself from destroying our beautiful life. I want to have my bride at the last moment and have complete happiness and contentment in my life.
Dreams are broken. People often use this word to describe the sudden loss of hope, and I can only say that I want to be crazy, crazy. It was the morning before the wedding. After I went to work, I received a letter. It was an anonymous letter written by a self proclaimed kind-hearted insider. It said that Lingzhi got pregnant and had an abortion with a teacher of the school when she was in junior high school. Later, when she was in college, she fell in love with many boys in her class and had a relationship. Just before she knew me, she went to Huangshan to travel with a taxi driver who was already a married man. My head suddenly lost consciousness like being hit by a heavy hammer, and my eyes suddenly blackened. A moment later, I rushed out of the office to find Ganoderma lucidum. The words on the letter were fresh in my eyes, and all scorpions were biting my heart. I want to find her quickly. I hope she can say: This is not true, it is deceiving. We met on the playground of her school. I showed her the letter. After reading it, she suddenly squatted down and cried loudly. The voice was so loud that it could be described as wailing. I think I already know the answer, but I still feel reluctant. I grabbed her shoulder, looked at her face full of tears and said, “tell me, this is not true”. She opened a pair of misty tears and said, “it’s true.”. I think that should be my youth farewell ceremony. My heart broke into 10000 pieces again in that moment. I suddenly slapped her. She didn’t dodge, and blood immediately flowed out of her mouth.
At that time, I was really too young and childish. This incident almost broke my spirit. My turbulent mania, depression and loss quickly transformed into physical problems, and my lungs continued to bleed. The hospital issued a notice of critical illness. Lingzhi runs to the hospital every day. As long as I have strength, I use my eyes and actions to indicate that I don’t want to see her and let her go. She accompanied me until I recovered, and endured the censure and face of me and my family. That was the last day I was hospitalized. She came again, and people were haggard. Her parents went out. She suddenly knelt in front of my bed and said with tears: “I love you, please give me a chance, and I will use my life to compensate you!”, I turned my face away and said coldly, “go, I hope I will never see you again!”
After leaving the hospital, I put all my energy into my work, and my life will continue. However, in any case, my mood is always so gloomy, and the gullies and wrinkles on my face are mainly the gift of that depressed day. However, every corner of that city seems to have left her and me footprints. Every time I touch it, my heart aches and sours. Half a year later, I quit this job with good prospects and good income and came to Guangzhou to become a worker without any qualifications. However, I hope that this city can give me a new life from scratch.
After the initial adaptation, search and exploration, fortunately, I became the lucky one among many southbound workers, found my own position, and got a good return. The emotional wounds were gradually healed. Once there was a salesman named Xiao Hong in the company, who was from Northeast China. She was tall and had a face like a star. We had a feeling for each other in the activities organized by the company. We had been going back and forth for a while. But one day, I found that she had a close meal with a short and fat man in the green Pavilion. Under my questioning, it turned out that she had been hired by him for three years. I was injured again, but this time it passed quickly. Woman, I cry in my heart, why don’t you cherish yourself so much.
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